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Getting back into art and watercoloring!

I suddenly feel inspired! The last few days have been extremely hot, 94 degree days with humidity making it feel over 100 degrees. The heat leads to me not wanting to do anything, not wanting to do anything leads to boredom and the boredom leads to me pondering about what to do!

I decided I wanted to draw some leaves and flowers, ecotherapy it up, ya know? So I head out to the yard, grab a couple of cool looking leaves, a little flower, I sit down in the shade with my little sketchbook and a pen and just go to town.

Well, for some reason drawing with a pen, or even a pencil just leaves me feeling totally antsy. I’m not sure why, maybe I just don’t like it. But I really wanted to do art. So I pondered some more.

Then I came to the realization! I tried water colors before, and I really enjoyed it. I didn’t need to draw lines with a pen, it wasn’t about lines, it was about blobs. I just blobbed the paper and boom I had an image. I painted a giraffe. I used happy pretty colors and It really brought joy. Not saying drawing doesn’t bring joy, I think I just don’t like line drawing or black and white. I think I really I like painting blobs that end up looking like an image in the end.

I still think we and I should all practice different types of art, just to see what really works for us. I can’t wait to get back into water colors. I’m buying my supplies on Amazon, I really love Amazon, I don’t have to go into a physical store, no waiting in lines. I can literally shop while I’m sitting in the woods… Can it get any better?

So my next little project will be to paint some leaves and flowers instead of drawing with a pen and see how I feel and I will update you guys!

Thanks for reading! Do you prefer drawing with lines or painting with blobs?

Also my Giraffe painting is for sale as a print in my etsy shop, click here or click on the picture if you’d like. Thank you! I wrote a little background story on the Giraffe painting as well.

One more thing, the links to Amazon are affiliate links and if you purchase something, I get a small commission. So if I inspired you to buy some watercolors, Thank you again!!

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I Find Mountains to be Healing

There is something truly magical about the mountains.

Every time I encounter a mountain or even a hill I feel a sense of well-being and uplifting energy. Even when I’m in the worst of moods and I encounter a mountain, all my feelings disperse and vanish before the beauty.

It is a wonderful thing that I’ve found such healing in the simplicity of looking at a mountain.

Something even more healing to me is taking a photo. I just love taking photos. I feel inspired, happy, calm and excited all at the same time. My anxiety turns into excitement, my sorrows turn into smiles, my heart softens and melts to the mountains.

I can’t speak for everyone’s experiences. I have memories of not always feeling this way about the mountains. It came to me over time. It really started after college. I went to school for cinematography. All my short films I made happened to be at my local mountains in my home town. After seeing my projects come together I felt fulfillment.

I also got into painting during this time. I used oil paintings and would look at my photographs of mountains then paint them on canvas with oil paint. The movements of the peaks and the imperfections, yet they seemed perfect to me usually brought me calm feelings.

Then, I got my dog and I really started to climb these mountains. Walking with my dog through the mountains gave me time for reflection. I felt all kinds of feels and noticed I released a lot of pain and emotions to the mountains.

My hope in you reading this is that I hope you can find what moves you. What makes you smile and what you find healing. I feel so empowered that I can release my emotions in a healthy way to the mountains.

Really pay attention to when you feel happy. Notice what kind of situation you are in, what you are doing, your surroundings and really acknowledge them. Once you figure out what makes you tick, you gain a lot of control and power to your life.

Try walking in the woods, hills or mountains and see how you feel. Find a view and photograph them. I can’t be the only one who feels so good about mountains and rolling hills. I suggest trying it out for yourself. If you live in flat lands, walk through a field or forest or even the desert and see how you feel.

Good day to all. Now go to the woods!!!

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We moved the Tiny House!

This was our first official big move, other than purchasing the home and moving it to our original off grid spot. I don’t think I’ve mentioned that at our original off grid spot, we have two different lots on the land. We have a summer spot and a winter spot. Both spots over there have its perks, I will get into that in another post maybe one day.

This winter though, we really had the vision of moving to a mountain resort. We wanted to move here because we are both in love with the mountains and do many mountain activities. This mountain also happens to be only 30 miles from our original off grid spot. If we really enjoy this season we might plan to do this move every year! The reason we planned to move to a mountain resort is mainly because Adam loves to snowboard and I enjoy to ski. I also love to hike, so moving to a mountain resort was the perfect idea in our eyes

Over the summer Adam prepped the home. He added new tires, brakes, lights, insurance, registration and probably more I’m not even aware of. We both worked full-time over the summer so it took time to prep our tiny house. We also didn’t want to rush things so we can continue our more stress free lifestyle.

So in October we paid our rent to the resort and reserved our seasonal “campsite” for the winter. We were told no water but free electricity. So we are technically on the grid, but to reserve power we still have our off grid set up going on here.

In November the big move day came. I basically destroyed the place inside before the road did and Adam worked on the outside making sure everything was in check. I think it took about 3 hours to prep for our move. Hopefully with practice we can get faster at moving it.

We are very fortunate that Adam’s parents live right down the road from our original off grid spot, so Adam’s dad agreed to help us move to our new spot with his big Chevy pick up truck.

I was so scared before this thing went on the road. I was basically on the verge of a panic attack. I had visions of the thing breaking in half or windows exploding. The fear of the unknown was real that day.

Adam’s dad is used to towing a huge 38 foot camper that they own so this was no big deal to him. That was a huge relief in my mind. Our tiny home is 40 foot. The only difference is our home is a little bit taller. We made sure there were no bridges on our route. We were set to hit the road.

Our first stop was at Adam’s parents house, where they have a shop. They made sure the tires had enough air there and checked for more safety. Then we hit the road officially.

It looked a little bit more normal on the road than I expected. I was surprised actually. I drove behind them and had my camera in my lap so I snapped a few pictures. (I don’t recommend taking pictures while driving I mainly did it while I was at a stop.)

It took only 40 minutes to get to the mountain resort. Of course going in couldn’t be that simple. There is a gate at the entrance and the gate didn’t want to let us in! It kept crashing down so Adam lifted it up and forced it to stay open. (Shhhh) they eventually fixed it a few weeks later and we are still here, luckily.

So yea, it took a bit to settle in. I have to get used to the new surroundings. We have some full-time RVers in the park, so we have neighbors, which is very new to us. We are now learning to respect our neighbors and teaching our dog manners. (Because they enjoy barking)

It is much different coming from the woods into a little tiny house neighborhood. So far though, life is great.

We literally got here a day before the first snow storm and it has been snowing every week since the move. There are great things to be said about living in a campground at a mountain resort maybe I’ll write a new post about that.

Thanks for reading. I will keep you updated on some adventures at our new mountain resort spot! Thanks for reading. Now I’m going on a winter wonderland walk. See ya!

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Kill Your Negative Self

Sometimes we hate on ourselves hard and don’t even realize it. Sometimes we think about what others think and put fake judgments of ourselves in our heads. Sometimes we feel depressed or sad for no reason at all.

Well I’m excited to share with you that I just read this awesome article about killing your negative self and I can’t wait to start practicing their tactics! (I’ll post their link at the bottom.)

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There are a few tactics that really stood out to me and I thought I should share.

They say to kill your negative self right in your tracks.

They say don’t give yourself too much credit.

The one tactic that really stood out is to ridicule your negative thoughts. Mock your negative thoughts.

This is so exciting to me. I can’t believe I never thought of this on my own. It’s exciting because whenever anyone throws negativity at me or any doubts I always lash out with mocking them. I usually repeat what they say in a high pitch silly voice .

Boy does it bother them! I’m in no way saying its right to mock people either. In fact I hurt a lot of people who had no intentions on hurting me with their negative feelings. (I just do it in my head now and smile at them)

The reason I find this exciting is because I can’t wait to hurt my negative self’s feelings. My negative self is already hurting me and throwing negativity at me, dragging me down into a hole. What better way to get out of this hole than to mock the negative self and kill your negative self??

By mocking our bad thoughts we are only hurting the negative thoughts.

Negative to negative? We were always taught to kill with kindness. This is so true with other people.

But it makes sense to kill negative within ourselves with mockery. I just don’t see anything wrong with it.

It excites me.

I’m always battling my thoughts. So I can’t wait to try this new tactic.

The mocking of our negative self makes it less important.

It gives us back our control!!

I don’t believe these thoughts always come from us either even though they are inside us.

So much outside of us can influence our feelings and we can’t always trust our feelings.

Another thing they mentioned in the article is to question our thoughts or feelings.

Sometimes I get bad feelings but no thoughts that follow it. So I can challenge myself and figure out where these bad feelings are coming from.

So instead of ignoring the feelings I can face them head on and figure it out.

Questioning our feelings helps us get to know ourselves better.

Its kind of crazy to think we don’t even fully know ourselves. We are constantly learning ourselves. We are also constantly changing so of course it makes sense to question ourselves. That is a great way to get to know others so yes it is a great way to get to know ourselves!

All the tactics in this article are great. I’ve mentioned writing in a previous article and this one also mentions writing. But they say to write your negative thoughts with the opposite hand you usually write with!

They say it makes the negative thoughts look smaller and childish.

Anyway, before I take your time away with my rambling I suggest reading the actual article I’m talking about. Thank you and enjoy!

Click here to read this awesome article!!!

Also before you go, here is a calming photograph of a misty river to sooth the soul

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Getting to Know Yourself With Writing: Depression and Anxiety

“You need to observe your own mind and get to know yourself. Be confident with yourself. Everything you see and encounter is a reflection of yourself. Like a magnet you attract things in your life. So I am just going to be. Allowing my feelings to be as they want…” – Holly Cyr

This is a passage from my personal journal that I just came across. I wrote this back in May 2014.

This whole journal entry was me expressing my depression, my life, my feelings. I asked many questions and at the end of my entry I wrote my own advise without the intentions of doing so.

The truth is, I deal with depression and anxiety almost daily. I’m sure many of us do.

I want to let you know that we are not alone.

I want to tell you it’s not easy to cope with depression and anxiety in any form. I know I have advise but sometimes it is hard for me to follow.

I have learned that in my personal life, my depression comes in waves. I will be very happy and then very sad. There are usually no reasons for the feelings of sad and usually no reasons for the feeling of happy. I, at least never see them.

I can only share my own experiences and can’t speak for yours but, my favorite way of coping with my own depression and anxiety is writing in my journal in a nature themed environment.

Sometimes its even hard to remind myself of this healing hobby. But once I do, I feel a relief as if a weight has lifted off my shoulders.

If you have never tried writing in a personal journal, I really encourage you to try it out.

I will go hiking and write at the top of the mountain. I will sit on a swing and write. I will sit by the river and write. It doesn’t matter if I make any sense when I write. There’s no judgements, no expectations and for some reason I always end up writing my own advise. The tricky part for me is to follow it.

I believe that lodging these nice thoughts in my mind could subconsciously help so, follow me if you will.

I find peace in writing. It helps slow my emotions down a little. I try to take deep breaths while I write. I feel at ease when I write. I can rant and vent and talk about anything in my journal. Then I don’t even have to read what I wrote!

I never reread what I write in my personal journal the day I write it.

I do, however, read my old journal entries days, months or years later. Just like I did today.

The entry I read today helped me tremendously. It helped to slow me down. I think that helps a lot. Slowing down.

Sometimes though, you are so down you don’t need to slow down. But when you are that down take the time to feel what you are feeling.

That’s what this post is really about. Just allow yourself to be and to feel no matter what it is. No judgments on yourself. Also don’t listen to the judgments of others.

Learn about yourself. Get to know yourself. Even the darkest parts of yourself . it might help you get to know others as well. It might teach empathy. It might teach calm and stillness.

I have noticed that when I let my feelings be, no matter what they are, they always pass. Just like clouds. It could be the cloudiest day ever but you know it won’t stay like that forever. Just like your feelings. Just like everything in this world.

Everything is constantly changing. Feelings are temporary and I feel that we sometimes forget that in the moment. It is okay to forget, just don’t let it take over.

Try to practice letting it be. Just let yourself be no matter what. Find the peace in all, even the negative.

It is a hard practice for sure. Watching your mind is a hard practice. But really all we can do is try to let it be.

Thanks for reading, it means a lot to me. Now go enjoy your day somewhere with nature!

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Here’s a random picture of my friend and my dog just being 🙂